Time

Time: it flies and drags. We spend it and loose it. We want it to speed up and slow down. But mostly, we seem to always want more of it. The very thing that I asked for is the very thing that causes so much pain. I have been blessed to have spent the last three weeks with my love ones, but as Brooks drove back to school today, I find it hard not to wonder where the time went and feel cheated for not having more to spend with him. I always expect to have more time: there will always be a tomorrow or next week. But in reality, there is only the hear and the now. This is such a hard lesson for me to embrace because I am a future-oriented planner by nature. However, I think that Jesus, while he had plans for the future, lived and continues to live presently. The Messiah College pastor once described Jesus as the 3mph God, which is the pace of a slower walk that allows for conversation to happen. So while Jesus was going somewhere, he used his time to its greatest potential, maximizing every bit of the relationship. As I begin my journey to Africa soon, I wish to emulate Christ in this way because before I know it, I will be returning to the States wondering where the past year went. Every month when I write my news letter, I will wonder, "where in the world did the time go?" But I also hope that each month when I look back and also look forward to the next month, I can see evidence of God's overarching plan in both my life and in the lives of the people around me. Maybe one day, I will be able to balance the present and the future.